Soaking Up the Good
“He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.” John 15:2
This past year has been one for change. Every day I have been growing and learning. God has a way of stretching you out. He has a way of wringing you dry and squeezing you out until all of the drops have stopped dripping off. This year was all about change, growth, and healing. Going from a married woman, to a single mom, not yet having completed my degree, not yet having achieved the goals I had set out to achieve, years ago, and when I finally realized, that time does not stand still, I understood where I stood, but did not want to admit just how much I had to bow my head and humble myself. In areas that I needed help, I had to stand there and accept it, my pride wasn’t helping anyone, especially my kids, and not me either.
A humbled attitude is what God needed for me obtain, so that I could ready myself to move forward and work harder, without worrying about certain things. God took my worries and provided me a way to focus on healing, my goals, and achieving dreams that will only set me up for success. He allowed me to be in a place, that not only was full of grace and love, but challenged me to grow, in new ways, and to learn new things. Over the past year I have been able to be razor focused, and just figure out how I want to approach life, and how to combine things, that I am already good at, with other things that I will be good at. God wants us to be constantly growing, seeking, and learning. We are such multifaceted beings, that if we do not take the time to explore all the different avenues of the gifts he freely gave to us, then he will direct us, by pointing our thoughts and desires that build up into our prayers. Then, our prayers will manifest, all of the things that we need to be learning, practicing, and incorporating into whatever area of life he has revealed for us to work on. This could be something that spreads into other areas of our life and bring out the good in it.
“22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.” Galatians 5:22 -23
One area that God loves to work on is in our relationships. Relationships are so important, but they need a good foundation to survive. When God sees that we are lacking in an area, particularly one in the realm of the fruits of the spirit, he will take us aside and begin his work in us. Kindness, is one that is popping into my mind. I was so upset with the way my life turned and the timing of that turn. I was less than a year out of graduating with my bachelor’s degree, I was signing up for international studies to study in Spain, and I had just informed my fiancé that I was pregnant. Since we were already engaged, we decided to go ahead and get married, and then move into his house, hours away from campus. In that agreement I was to continue to work toward my degree. Well, that only worked until the baby came, and then we ran into problems in our home, that kept me from moving forward with my next class. I became angry and mean to people I disagreed with or that I just could not jive with. I felt like I gave everything up, and I was not getting anything out of it. So, releasing my anger and showing other’s kindness by allowing myself to feel, is something that God has been squeezing out of me, more and more every day. This blog was started in response to all I was feeling, and just typing out my faith and sharing it to the world, has been a life changer, so much that my depression went away. God knows what he is doing, just let him squeeze out all the bad, so that you have room to soak up the good.